welcome to nightmare 3rd night

its been 3 days since i got sick and im so sick of it. i cant depict wats real or not until im actually awake or whether if me being alive proves that i am an existence. no matter how much times i cough i cant rid of it. being sick allows me to not care of anything. for sum reason i dont really care about wats going on around me, but all i care about is me getting better hahaha probably an evolutionary mechanism to conserve energy. anyway i really do think a deathnote should exist and i can exact judgement among those who think they can be above all. the turmoil that exists in this world was created before it was even existent. we do not have control over it and all they do is laugh from above as if living here was some sort of test?!?! then if this were just to be a simple "test" can that prove that the higher powers above are not perfect?? and if not, then wat is the word 'perfect' if there is nothing that can prove that there is anything perfect in this world?? nothing is perfection. nothing gains nor loses, nothing does not detest and nothing is everything everyone ever wanted. nothing does not become sick... i wish i was nothing so then i wouldnt be sick. i long for the warmth of my summer. i like eggs. i am breakfast.