welcome to Jeremy's secret

you remember that silly little conversation we had wen went to the coal mining plant for chem excursion and on the way back home i was speaking of the most 'stupidest' idea ?? it was on the way back home i spoke about how there was no such thing as good and bad and they were just words and it doesnt exist and belief is a system created to control us. HAHAHAH i was actually trying to reach out to you for answers to questions i dared not ask anyone else for i didn't deem anyone would have given me a complete solid answer. reality is that i was a social withdrawal and didn't let anyone get too close to expose the nothingness i possess.

good and bad. nothing more than opinions/or beliefs to objectify reason. it is completely meaningless within the frame of the reality we live in. such a society we live in was based on morals and beliefs created by religions and anti-religions. we live where we believe there is justice. and we also believe in a 'soul' that claims to have higher order and makes clear distinctions and decisions based on morality and well being. but what are these things? yes they create a system, but wat we didnt know is its a system of control. its a system where we struggle to find the answer that we 'supposedly' contain within us a 'energy' that is more unique to all the other energies in this universe and we 'supposedly' have this energy that transcends amongst all. yet we have knowledge of how BIG this fucking universe is which is made up of the elements we are composed of and yet we still believe we are more than what we actually?? thats just confusing. and its also another form of thinking that we are once agen the center of the universe. the reality is we are the products of DNA and to think or believe we are anything more than that is the option we create by a series of synapses in the brain. other than that its belief is 'essentially' nothing else but a mechanism of instinct that allows us to survive, that is to say if we speak of belief in a pure form. following from the big bang it was pre-determined that existence was going to be this way from all those energy changes and collisions. DNA predetermined the way i was going to think and feel about things and react to stimulus to the environment. The physical surrounds i see and feel was pre-determined to become the way it is. to claim something is good or bad or BETTER is meaningless. in fact it is NOTHING. wat i used to see was nothing. a future that was black and wen i died then its total darkness.

i would sit there continually asking why why why why why. and wen i hit the end of the why's, everything stopped. i reached the point where 'why' didnt matter anymore and wasnt an issue.

conclusion: nothing.

imagine trying to see beyond nothing. i did, and saw nothing (lol).


ive stopped looking into nothingness because it was as meaningless as good and bad. but to say this is to contradict the very life i live right now and render me just as pathetic as the person who thought of such processes. i was such an idiot in my youth. dont tell anyone

i see light now. the light of day that gives energy to everything on earth. the only thing that i predetermine now is the way i make money and use it to get by.

probably is big reason why i hold everything that is close to me very tightly. please understand yoroshiku onegaiishimasu (bow) my existence in living is no reason at all. i live.

welcome to my secret.... which is probably a secret... and also many others share the same secret