LOL so i had a revision tutorial which lasted only 40 mins. and i had nothing else today which was such a waste. so to not make it a waste and since it would be my last time around there i decided to walk around campus. i first started off with my after-class pokemon behind the glasshouse bar at the loading dock area and made my way to computer labs to check email etc. followed by EXTREME boredness... so instead of pretending to read lecture notes and watching that stupid video we made (daftdrunks) i went back to pokemon spot then walked through to building 4 then out to the grass and into building 1 and went upstairs to the chairs where i went to sleep until 2pm. jeremy then got off his ass and decided to eat curry at poporo yummmmmmmm ^^v. i then thought i wasted enough time and had to choose either sleep more or go home to sleep more. so i went home and took the 3 35 train. the reason why i didnt wanna go home is probably coz i kno wen im there there's nothing waiting for me or nothing for me to wait for... i dont usually have a feeling like so but maybe its loneliness? hahaha its not that bad actually. i feel more relaxed knowing youre not here to hurt me or monkey around with me ahhahahaha LOL jks jks. not that i miss it or anything =P hehehe nahhH but im doing fine just need some time to cope to this weird atmosphere is all. the expectation of unexpecting dissipates rapidly and nothing sets in... my mind flusters for stimulation that requires events to occur which allows us to become oblivious of the fact that such events need not occur nor exist however we were conditioned to make it so and it becomes instinct and even now still i feel anxious for not considering the possibilites of creating such possibilites or impossibilites... we usually cover up this anxiety by convincing ourselves that we are bored and decide to create action.... LOL pretty cool huh? you should wonder where i pull out this sort of stuff sometimes... i should wonder why i am aware of such useless useful facts...
anyway in the end it all leads to acceptance and such so the process of how to come to acceptance and action essentially doesnt matter to most... though by understanding you can find where some problems lie most possibly (Fuertes, 2008). ohhHH shiiieeEE OOHHHH SHIEEE i just didnt!! oh yes i did! i referenced my own blog hahahaahhahahaHHAHAHAHASLKDJSALKJFDLK:"@#@#PO#P OK TIMEWARP *KABOOOOOM*
are you enjoying the showers with the tabo which is also used for the kubeta lol eyy my tag-a-log is alrite lol... youre probably doing a lot of:
anyway right now im obsessed with tokyo jihen and want to play it on piano but its 1 30AM and i dont think my family would appreciate me playing piano at this time nor would my neighbours. its raining here right now. chocolate rain *moves away from mic to breathe in*. im also have a crush on tomoko kawase (tommy february6/heavenly6) right now... i think its her voice! she draws me in and hypnotizes me with her pretty eyes *dkasjf;jhteh;lk*
oh well i got my last lec. today at 4 00 PM. i better enjoy this one
im going jabye!
References
Fuertes, J. Excerpts from an idiot who knows much too much. Journal of Total Greatness (2008) vol. 1 page 4453 - 4489
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