the calm

so i think im finally getting use to this feeling of you not being around. i dont really do anything all day. hahah i just play games n watch anime! wat else is there to do anyway? esp. wen my car wont start.... =Z yessSS thats RIGHT its been raining since you left and my car wouldnt start after that little trip to the airport... grrr wat did you do?!!?!? huh?!?!!? whos behind this all?? LOL no just pulling your leg... watever that means or intends to mean...

I think im reverting slowly back to shut-in Jeremy, or much rather i get the feeling im tending towards it for i get the feeling everyone is using me... angain... which could most likely explain the increased gaming/anime watching and decreased studying rate... thought he tests were negative for hep B... it may be neurological, ITS LUPUS!!! hahahahah i watched the last ep today and it was pretty good. id tell you wat happened but its not worth destroying its worth for it was well and carefully planned out. therefore i highly advies you watch it wen u come home.

but no i don’t think ill become dragged down by minor problems. ive changed from then and im much stronger and faster and im better updated. just because my mind tends to feel something doesn’t mean i should move toward feeling it, even if i don’t feel comfortable, so that way i can get use to it and be more of an idiot i guess hahahHAAHA but nevertheless its just altering the thought process that goes into it and becoming in control of my world. i don’t think ill ever become in such a poor state agen... its just too sad. why do i matter on such things anyway lol hahaha aren’t you glad you met sumone like me? I kno i would... all too much

but at least you FINALLY managed to find the internet haha id like to ask how you doing? and hows everytng?? and also are you enjoying your stay?? but not i do not think its physically possible anymore, now that i think about it you made it so you couldn’t be contactable by anyone hence you leaving ur mobile phone at home hahahaha but u cant help it cant you?!? but then i wouldn’t have a clue wen your coming back so we can see you at airport... LOL though i don’t think ur into those awkward airport meetings hahahah i kno i wouldn’t, first thing id wanna do wen coming back from holiday is sleep lol. oh well do what you have to and come back sometime... maybe we can have coffee at San Marco Square? maybe youll pop up out of nowhere sometime hahaha remember that time wen you tried to sneak into my house but i heard your car pull up and i hid behind the door hahahahahah that was classic

i just did a shit it was pretty good