welcome to your number one

as i am holding onto feelings that i can't speak of, my heart is filled with visions of you. but it looks like these unbearably painful thoughts will make me...
your eyes are fixed on him, forever unwavering. but hey, just a little... only a little, could you look at me? the more often we meet the worse i feel. seeing you is bound to make me lonely... isnt it selfish? this troublesomeness to which i feel? if i had met you before anyone else you wouldve loved me as in my dreams... the way i wished for, right?

if once more i would to be reborn again, then next time i want to be your number one.